We survived our 11 year wedding anniversary dinner at a very fancy restaurant yesterday. With a 3 and 5 year old. The Stone House is just gorgeous, albeit the menu was underwhelming. We were the first ones to arrive, like, the first clients to arrive (ugh). Dinner service started at 5, our reservation was at 5, and we were there by 4:45. Sad.

The staff knew that we are there for our anniversary and promptly served us a glass of champagne without us asking (grateful). I then had a margarita. All in all, we were not the only ones with small kids, and ended up having a good time. But there was no sobremesa afterwards. We sat, we ordered, we ate and drank, got dessert and got the hell out of there before R or L would explode.

Sigh. Must be nice to have able and willing family living nearby to help with child care. Neither me or T have that option and the sitter fell through so… S’all good, we just need to get a back up sitter.

Day 2 of SAHM is… I don’t know.

I can’t stand the fragmented attention that being with my own kids. I wish I had, say, 15 minutes to focus on ONE thing, without being interrupted. When I teach high school, I explain to my students what to do and they do it. But with these two…

Today I was listening to an audiobook while at the playground, and they just would not stop asking me questions. Especially my oldest. Why this, why that. I know, I know, part of the development yada yada yada, but I wish I could get through one MINUTE of the audio book without someone interrupting me. Ugh, I sound cynical.

Anyway, today was a good day after all. In spite of all this rain that NJ got over the past few days. We spent a lot of time outside by watching the weather (patting myself on the back) and getting out of the house as soon as the rain clouds broke.

Went to the Watchung Reservation: hiked, visited the Trailside Center, and did an hour on the playground. That is when I snuck in the air-pod into my ear and started listening to my audio book. Or, tried to. By the end they were sweaty, and tired, and hungry: just as I like it 🙂 Someone will be sleeping well tonight. Maybe THEN I will get to finish my audiobook.


16 responses to “SAHM day 2: fragmented attention”

  1. Coco Avatar

    I also get annoyed being interrupted when reading/listening something. then get annoyed by myself for being annoyed with my kids when they want to share things. if possible, I try to put things away when I’m with them, just look at them, be ready to be asked, while comtlmplatig about life I general. it’s like active meditation. 🙂

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      I love that approach!!! Thank you !!

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  2. Lisa of Lisa’s Yarns Avatar

    A day with the kids is so fragmented. I would struggle with a whole summer at home with them which I recognize sounds awful. I struggle with Will’s age. He has had epically bad tantrums lately so the days feel sooo long! I can’t wait until I’m at the stage of parenting where I can just sit on a bench and watch them. I am still a very active participant since Will wants me to ‘come wiff’ everywhere. He’s my Velcro baby.

    I am glad the dinner went well overall! We also do not have family to help with babysitting nearby. My MIL is 80 so not agile enough to keep up with my kids. She could watch the oldest. We haven’t hired a babysitter since 2020! How awful is that? We were going to hire my colleague’s daughter but it kept falling through as she is in HS so we kind of gave up. But it’s something we need to get back to doing.

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      I feel heard Lisa! Glad to NOT be the only mom in my group of mom friends (or so it feels) that has zero childcare except of course day care during the school year.

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  3. Noemi Avatar

    I think you’re doing a great job embracing the realities of being home with your kids in the summer. I have to admit, I did not do that when my kids were young. I mean we had to keep paying for their childcare anyway (lest we lost our spot), so it was easy to keep them in for at least part of most days, but I probably would have found something else if that wasn’t available. I just really struggle with being home with them for loooong periods of time. They are now 13 and 9 and they are still in camp almost every week this summer (except for when we’re traveling). The weeks my kids are in camp in the summer are the only ones I get to spend not around kids! I really need them!

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      I hear you with my whole heart lol Thanks for stopping by!

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  4. Elisabeth Avatar

    I struggle a lot having my kids home all summer. I WFH during the year – flexibly, without childcare outside of school – so am essentially also a SAHM and it’s…intense. It works best for our family since my husband travels so much and I want to be available for the kiddos, but I definitely don’t love being home with kids all the time. This summer I’ve tried to plan A LOT of things. My kiddos like to be active and engaged, while I’m an introvert, so having things on their schedule is crucial.

    Happy Anniversary!!

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Thank you!! Having places to do and things to do is essential! Hope you a feeling a tad bit better.

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  5. melissagstebbins Avatar
    melissagstebbins

    Yes, being home with young kids is unrelenting and tediously boring a lot of the time. We didn’t have childcare when my kids were young (I didn’t work). Eventually because Hubby was away so much when the kids were 5, 3 and 1, we get his cousin to come for 5 hours every second Wednesday which gave me an opportunity to get out of the house. Sadly I often ended up taking some of that time to do the supermarket shopping because that was so hard having to drag all three with me. Adult kids are a lot easier!

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Not having that “village” here with me is tough. All my family lives in Russia… And my husband’s family is in Maine…

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  6. Kyria @ Travel Spot Avatar

    I hope that things start to normalize a bit! When I was a kid my parents would send me off to stay with an aunt for a couple of weeks each summer. I loved it, it probably got me out of their hair and I got to become a lot closer with my aunt and uncle and eventually cousins! Maybe you could do that? Just farm them out?

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      I would absolutely LOVE to do that. I firmly believe that kids should build relationships with other (responsible) family members. Unfortunately, my husband does not have any responsible siblings. And my brother lives in Russia and, well, drinks a lot… Not a good place for kids…

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      1. Kyria @ Travel Spot Avatar

        Hmmm…well maybe a college friend? Or even a close by friend, where you could each take each other’s kids for one week to give each other a break?

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      2. Daria Avatar
        Daria

        A great idea! A switch with fellow mom 🙂

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  7. San Avatar

    Happy anniversary. I am glad you celebrated, even though you had the kids in tow. It is hard doing the family life without any family support nearby (something I’ve always feared, when I thought that I might have kids far away from family).

    I can see how your attention is fragmented when you’re with your kids – they’re of different ages, so probably very different in attention span and “focus”.

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Thank you for reading, San. You are right about the different ages of kids and their focus- plus, they are very different personality-wise.

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