Would love to share some wins over the past week and a half as well as some things I am struggling with…

Struggles

😮‍💨 Before/after care for L when she is in kindergarten. T is away for a week in September and it’s just me. My first class starts at 7:50 and I can drop L at 7:30 the earliest. Then it’ll be “pedal to the metal” style of driving to my work. UGHHHHH. I like to get to work an hour or 40 minutes before. On weeks that he is traveling I will have to go in and maybe go straight into lesson. That means that… I will get that lesson ready from the day before. That’s okay-I can handle it. All I do is let the students in, plug in the tablet and it’s show time. I’ll be fine. Deep breaths.

😮‍💨 I am grieving the fact that neither T nor me have family around that could help with such things as school pick ups and drop offs (especially for L). I admit I am openly jealous of moms who have reliable, mentally healthy, and financially stable parents/grandparents/relatives living *next door* or in the *next town* or even in the *same state*. BUT- read on for some silver lining below. More deep breaths.

Morning glories as seen out of our bedroom window.

Wins

🥐 Consistent Yoga Routine since coming back from Poland – I use Yoga with Adrienne and Yoga with Kassandra on YouTube. Additionally, I discovered foot reflexology and hand yoga and been doing a self-soothing massage every evening to help myself wind down.

🥐 An under-buyer like myself invested in a little care package from Nordstrom’s for myself: an eye cream from Bobbi Brown, a night cream from Fresh, a foundation from Armani, a body cream from Laura Mercier, and a collection of small fragrances from Bobbi Brown. My soul was dying on the inside when I paid but oh well. Treat yo’self!

🥐 My current book called My American Life by Francine Prose. I am flying through it! More later.

🥐 This year I have a classroom all to myself! As a language teacher I am used to teaching Spanish in English classes, science labs and even cafeteria (my first school). But this year I have my own classroom! It will do wonders for mental load.

🥐 I seriously committed to a cleaning lady that will come once a month to deep clean the house while we maintain in between. She is from Slovakia so I feel a kindred spirit. I wanted to outsource the cleaning for the longest time but the Eastern European guilt was preventing me from doing it since “real women do everything themselves, they work, raise kids, clean house and make pelmenis from scratch.” Shut up, mom.

🙏 Although I don’t have family in the US I do have friends and neighbors that are willing to help. I have two local Russian friends who have their moms (babushkas) living here so if I am completely and entirely stuck, I can always ask if L, R or both can go to their house. I have two neighbors (one on each side of us) with similar age kids who I know will come through if I am in a pickle.

Leaving you with a flower bed of wild flowers that brought me joy this summer. The flower bed was built by my dad when he came to the US back in 2017.


20 responses to “Wins and Struggles”

  1. Nicole MacPherson Avatar

    Before and after school care is such a tricky thing to balance. I hope it works out okay for you, with your friends to help if needed.
    I like those products, and I agree – you have to treat yourself sometimes!

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Here they are! They lasted me over 4 years lol
      Oops had to share the link on your other post.

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  2. Elisabeth Avatar

    Love the flower bed!

    It is so hard without family around. My parents have started to relocate to my town over each winter and it is SO helpful. But my husband travels a lot for work, so I juggle solo parenting about 40% of the year and that is…exhausting.

    So glad your yoga routine is going well and gold stars on getting someone to help with cleaning. I bet you will LOVE it!

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      I was thinking of you when I was complaining about not having family around- I know you know first hand how to solo parent!! I know I’m not alone. Most days it’s fine, I’ve done it before, but this year L is in kindergarten and before/aftercare is still “being arranged” and I dislike being in a limbo like this 😦 Deep breaths.

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  3. Coco Avatar

    I know the struggle of pick ups after school since they finish before working hours. I’m deeply grateful for my husband taking care of the kids pick ups and drop offs. I know he sacrificed his own career to support my career, not easy thing for a highly educated and smart man. we also could have used driver with nanny for those, but I honestly don’t like the culture of delegating to non-family members for those things. kids need their parents, period. that’s why I’ve committed to end office work early so I can be with them more, if I need to work, I’ll work those hours at home with them. I know it gives them comfort to have me around.
    I have the same Armani foundation, love love love it.

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Oh how I wish I had the flexibility to do what you do- unfortunately, when students are in class I am not able to leave and finish teaching from home. I truly wish but that is what I get for being a teacher. So I have to work around it. When my husband is home (he works from home) then it’s not an issue at all. But when he is traveling for business (like the second week in September) then there is not much he can do. I agree 100% about having family help but unfortunately that is not possible at all. They can’t leave Russia and T’s mom is in Maine and is disabled. Oh well. Thank you for reading and letting me vent! 🙂

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  4. Lisa of Lisa's Yarns Avatar

    Ugh the before care thing is rough. Luckily our program opens at 6:30 during the school year and I think it is open until maybe 6pm in the evening? The summer program opens at 7. Paul is ALWAYS the first kid dropped off and I feel some guilt about that but it’s the nature of our careers. I try to pick him up around 4 on days I WFH to shorten his day but he’s used to being in daycare for 10 hours a day. I’m just glad we have these hours available to us because we also don’t have family close by to help with things like this. My parents are 3 hours away so they will come if need be, like last week when my mom came to help with Taco while I took Paul to his procedure since Phil was out of town. Phil’s mom is 80 and she is just not strong enough to take care of my boys… she can handle Paul since you don’t really have to pick him up, but she could not handle Taco. No way. My mom is 75 but is a young 75 and is incredible agile/able to keep up with my kids.

    I so wish I could talk my husband into rehiring a cleaning company. We used to have a company come in every other week but we dropped that when Will was born to limit the # of people coming into our house since it was peak covid time. Then my husband got used to not spending all that money on it and decided he would clean instead. But he’s so busy at work and our weekends are so full of kid stuff… our house isn’t as clean as it was when we had a deep clean every other week. We can afford it but for him, he doesn’t feel great about paying someone to clean.

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Thank you for the validation! And yes, I understand about paying for cleaning [my soul is crying lol) but it has to be done.

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  5. Irena Avatar
    Irena

    Hi Daria, i hope the kiddos drop off/pick up gets solved via reaching out to your neighbors and friends. I know it is not always easy to ask, but hey seems like you got a few different friends around, and hopefully it will all work out! Who knows maybe you will be able to trade off some hours and watch their kids on Friday night sometimes or something like that 🙂
    On a serious note, from one working mom to another, I hear you and the struggle is real! We also have no support from grandparents, I am also from Russia! I came to the U.S. to do my PhD and continued on the Research track in academia afterwards. I have now been at my current institution for many years, and earned some flexibility (and seniority), so it makes our life with two school-age kids more manageable. I work from home most of the time, and when I have to go in, I can plan my days on campus 9am-3 pm., so I am home by the time my boys walk from school. But it hasn’t always been like that , i am still recovering from a rough ride of having kids while pursuing a full time tenure track position in academia. Those times were insane. Breathe. These times will pass. Looks like your husband travels only occasionally. You guys got this! He seem to be an amazing support 😉 Your family is so cute, thanks for sharing the glimpses of your family life with us! Wishing you a great start of the fall semester!

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Wonderful to hear from you Irena! Happy to see we are compatriots. It did work out at the end- our next door neighbor came through and L will be going to school with her girls when T is away. Not ideal but I can’t sow myself in half to be in two places at the same time. Still working on mom guilt. Will get there eventually lol

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      1. Irena Avatar
        Irena

        Hi Daria, thanks for connecting! I have been thinking about that most of the visitors on this blog have their own blogs, which makes it easier to get connected! Do you have an email so that I can use to send you a link to my faculty page? I would love to keep in touch, but feel that the current set up is working only one way – me reading your blog! Maybe if we can connect through email it would be less virtual and more personal 🙂

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      2. Daria Avatar
        Daria

        Hi Irena! Here is my email: momofchildrenblog@gmail.com – would love to connect!

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    2. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Also, having kids while pursuing tenure in higher ed? God bless you friend.

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    3. Anne Avatar
      Anne

      Just going to say, Irena, that if you want to add one more thing to your plate, there is definitely a group of people out there (me included) who would love to read a blog written by someone who has survived the tenure track in the US. So… maybe think about writing your own blog at some point? 🙂

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      1. Daria Avatar
        Daria

        A great idea! I, for sure, will read it with much interest.

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  6. Maya Avatar

    That flower bed is lovely and it must mean so much knowing your dad built it for you…
    I hope the childcare situation resolves itself. I would say ask for help from your neighbors and friends–usually, people are happy to be asked, and giving and receiving help can strengthen relationships!

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      I did ask and the neighbor came through! Just like you said. Congrats to Nu on another school year!

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  8. Irena Avatar
    Irena

    Thank you so much for your support and confidence in me! The time it took me to reply to this comment probably says that I won’t make a great blogger! My goals for this year are actually in a different direction: maximize time spend with people and outdoors, and minimize the screen 😉 Thanks to Daria for creating this online space for us :))

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    1. Daria Avatar
      Daria

      Same for me! Blogging is a great alternative to just scrolling!

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